Tuesday, April 12, 2011

The Darkness in The light

"Go to your room little loud mouth bitch" my dad used to say. He would hit till i bled. i run up to my room without saying one word, cause i knew if i spoke i would get hit again. I almost never talk to anyone anymore. Crap I left my backpack down stairs i thought to myself. "Little bitch come and get your backpack!" I rush down stairs to grab it. He took me from behind and grabbed my neck throws me across the room and hit the wall.bleeding already i get up grab my stuff and run up stairs. I lock my door. pounding on the door my dad threatens me with a knife.I fall asleep crying.
7  years have passed and i am now 14 with all bruses and scars i did when i was 7. I walk around the school, something catches my eye. Rafy  sturs was starring at me like he liked me. I smile back. He turns to his locker grabs his books and walk away. I go to my class. after school I go home and I go straight up stairs lock my door and do my home work.  Rafy and me fell in love after 2 years just randomly talking to each other. One night I go home and my dad is drunk he hits twice,three, four times now. After he was done hitting me i grab a knife without him noticing i went to my room with it. i stood there crying for a few mins. and plunged the knife in my chest.
Everything went black......

Much Love and Assalamualaikum ,
 Yasmin Soraya <3

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Make Your Own Dreams

I couldn't escape school but i could focus on other things . We had a huge handball competition coming up ,  so I threw myself into training and tried to forget about bullies and other problems . My life only sucked from 8 am till 10 am . Then I went to the field and pushed it all out of my head . Hehe :)

Handball wasn't just my passion . It was my salvation that year . Its was the only way I was surviving in that school . If I quit and choose other , I'll regret it all my life  This was my chance . And I was scared out of my mind . One thing keep me go till now :

   " The dreams that you hold for your future are what you dream about at night . They're always at the back of your mind . They're what your heart desires . They keep you going . Accept reality and have a backup plan , but always follow your dreams no matter what ! "

I have always believe that the greatest opportunities in life come with fear and risk . I realized that taking the risk was like soaring in a Handball stunt and having faith that someone would be right next to me to support me . Handball has teached me to be a better person . I've learned so much from that sports . I've leerned to be a better player , better friend and a better student . We become what we Experience .*ececeh* B-)

Much Love and Assalamualaikum ,
Yasmin Soraya ♥